Elon Musk’s ex-wife, Talulah Riley, has opened up in a resurfaced essay about her tumultuous relationship with the billionaire entrepreneur,

describing how his “alpha” behavior made her feel “disposable” during their marriage. Riley, who married Musk twice—first in 2010 and later again in 2013 after a brief divorce—details in the essay

how Musk’s dominant and often controlling behavior made her feel diminished in their relationship. While their high-profile marriage was often subject to public scrutiny,

Riley’s essay provides a rare, intimate look into the emotional and psychological dynamics of their union. According to Riley,

Musk’s personality, which she describes as “alpha,” often left her feeling like she was secondary to his needs and ambitions, rather than a partner in the traditional sense.